Late March Madness
Mar. 23rd, 2026 11:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gillman I fear things have not improved on my end! I am very busy and tired. My period has completely stopped and I am losing more hair </3 I am very lucky to have so many friends who have come to help me out, I really do love them. I had hopped to have answers on everything by now, but I don't! I am getting by, but houf am I tired. I am really really hoping to get things figured out soon. I do think I have been in a constant state of panic since late January, and my body is taking the roll for sure. I am terrified to lose my grad school opportunity. I do not have actual breakdowns often, but I did sob in my partners chest today over the state of things.
Today, there is a special person coming to campus. I can not say who, lest I dox myself, but I will be laughing a lot and I need a good laugh right about now! I can not wait.
The weather is beautiful, I wish I could calm down enough to enjoy it! I hate being a complainer or a debby-downer, I have just never experienced this specific issue in my life before. I don't know how to handle it or come back from this. This is something that I have to figure out on my own, and I am trying! But it really does suck right now. I am worried that my family and professors will think I'm not prepared for grad school. I'm starting to get a bit worried that this is a proper burn-out and that I won't have recovered by this fall.... scary.
This weekend I have a concert! I am travelling a decent bit to go, but it's of my favorite artist right now and I'm very excited. Gas prices have me a bit antsy about it, but I will just have to deal with it...
Today, there is a special person coming to campus. I can not say who, lest I dox myself, but I will be laughing a lot and I need a good laugh right about now! I can not wait.
The weather is beautiful, I wish I could calm down enough to enjoy it! I hate being a complainer or a debby-downer, I have just never experienced this specific issue in my life before. I don't know how to handle it or come back from this. This is something that I have to figure out on my own, and I am trying! But it really does suck right now. I am worried that my family and professors will think I'm not prepared for grad school. I'm starting to get a bit worried that this is a proper burn-out and that I won't have recovered by this fall.... scary.
This weekend I have a concert! I am travelling a decent bit to go, but it's of my favorite artist right now and I'm very excited. Gas prices have me a bit antsy about it, but I will just have to deal with it...
