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Aug. 24th, 2025 03:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Inspired by Shyvana’s journal on linking Bitter Glasse, I’ve decided to take my heart link with Uma Musume and reconstruct it. Although I’ve been trying to establish the group (Umas) as a hearttype and Cinderella Gray as a hearttale, I haven’t had much success in either venture. I’m very passionate about the characters of Uma Musume. Each of them have surprisingly rich stories, and I’ve come to enjoy the series as a fan who doesn’t play the game itself. Given my personal hang-ups with gacha games, I choose to stick with the manga and its anime adaptations. I figured this link would eventually be dropped, but reading Shyvana’s post was like a breath of fresh air. I hesitated to switch this linktype from a heartlink to a fictionlink, largely because I was adamant about not being an Uma Musume.
However, life is a funny, fickle thing. I’ve been having cameo shifts as an Uma. Initially, I thought nothing of it and assumed it to be partially equine shifts (kemonimimi shifts, in this case). I’d only experience phantom ears, a tail, and horseshoe-like protrusions underneath my feet. I didn’t feel distinctly like someone else until I’d experience cameo shifts as specific characters within Uma Musume. Among these cameo shifts, I experienced being: Symboli Kris S, Orfevre, Durandal, and Fenomeno. There’s only a couple of similarities from these characters: their maturity, their resolve, and their sense of duty. Besides that, they had both aesthetic and characteristic differences between them. Of the four Umas, I felt myself gravitating around Orfevre and Durandal the most. I’m no stranger to royal aesthetics. I have fictomeres where that went beyond aesthetics for me, and none of them turned out great. It doesn’t surprise me that it’s these two in particular who caught my attention, or at least my shapeshifting’s attention. Although I respect Orfevre’s commanding presence and confidence (traits I want as my own), I think I’m more like Durandal in terms of behavior. There’s also the fact that her hair (including the white patch) matches my coat as an American Quarter Horse. Learning that she excels in short distances threw me through a loop, too; AQHs are known for doing well in that field. Before doing anything else, I want to learn more about this world’s Durandal. We’ll likely have nothing in common, seeing that I feel represented by the fictionalized version of him. That said, I want to do this out of courtesy.
I want to link the traits of Uma Musume’s Durandal, but I think this situation is more of a questioning process than the building of a linktype. If so, my best guess is that this falls within the psychological department of experiences, but I’m not confirming anything without further introspection. Who knows, I might have to give Orfevre another shot if this doesn’t go anywhere. I’ve always had a weird relationship with my equinehood. I didn’t think it’d carry over to reincarnated horse girls, though. It’s strange since, as a horse, I’m not a racer. One of my breeds can qualify in races, but I regard myself as the type of AQH to either do ranch work or compete in cutting competitions. Otherwise, I take pride in being depended on for draught work. Perhaps, it’s our mutual interest in servitude that ties Durandal and I together. It’s not the same kind of servitude, but both involve putting our bodies— especially our physical strength— to the test for those we work with. Again, I’m not confirming anything yet. I still need to learn more about this world’s Durandal and Orfevre respectively. I plan on watching both characters’ in-game stories as well. This may give Orfevre a chance in this process. May the best horse girl (or version of me) win, I suppose.
Honestly, I should’ve seen this coming when those kemonomimi shifts started happening a lot more often. But, what can you do, y’know? Sometimes, you wind up questioning something you never thought you’d question. Then, as you go through that, it turns out a lot more pressing than you thought it’d be. Such is the case with alterhumanity.
crosspost from tumblr . most of this kind of feel like rehash of posts already here , but never really say much on tumblr as of yet , and would like to save .
think pretty shallow to say , even if happen to be reincarnate fictionfolk who fully hold faith in multiverse , that everyone who work on any given piece of media is definitely reincarnate from that media . multiverse is full of infinite possibilities , by nature . but pieces of media that people present do not inherently reflect every possibility , nor every truth , of worlds within .
this can be for many reasons . to tell stories and make art is part of nature as people , but there is also set of skills to build up to make these satisfactory for audiences . media can be inaccurate to these places due to simply lack of skill in expression .
pieces of media can tell stories of other worlds , but simultaneously hold allegorical purpose for this world here and now . rusted moss tell story in which faeries and humans lock in eternal struggle , each with biases against each other and treat each other horribly . rusted moss is also game that ask what if faerie girl get some big old guns and swing around on grapples , because that make for unique game design . and , rusted moss is also allegory about societal treatment of autism , because that is experience of writers and many others in this world . all of these coexist without invalidation of each other .
other pieces of media start with what might be accurate or semi-accurate view , but other biases of world here and now colour and change these aspects into cruelty and stereotypes . bosmer exist within forests of valenwood . bosmer oathbound to god , y'ffre , to protect plant life - to never harvest , nor cut , nor burn , for any reason at all . bosmer must instead hunt animals . oh , and cannibalise enemies . y'ffre will dispose of anyone who violate these terms , even if done accidentally , or to save lives . how much of that is accurate to multiversal worlds of TES ? that is something for individuals to figure out personally - but here and now , presentation very much distill some of cruelest indigenous stereotypes , and that can not go without at least barest acknowledgment .
similarly , corporate interests - or even just constraints of target audience - can meddle and change media to be functionally unrecognisable from mirrors in multiverse . if australia's 2005 preschool series the fairies was reflection of somewhere out in multiverse , would harmony and rhapsody really break into song everyday over mundane events , or could one reasonably assume that even in-universe this is just show which characters put on ?
simply in nature of people to tell stories . whether those stories reflect parts of multiverse or not is personal interpretation - but even then , that is not to say that every storyteller must be reincarnate . people have many reasons that might end up with these connections and speak of reflections , and think that actually more often tie into life here and now than past ones - whether that is desire to create allegory , to build something that feel strange and exotic ( awful stereotypes and all ) , to tell stories for specific audiences , or just to sit down and have some fun .
OK , honestly , what really and truly baffle about bigots - particularly transphobes , intersexists , and TERFs in this case - is that put on thin veneer of care about protection for people , try to make points strong and clear , talk about visions for world ... and while definitively look at wrong targets in these cases , try to ascribe perfect boxes and binaries that just do not work in real world , can understand core of those desires - to create world in which these problems will not be problems .
... and then 3 posts down see some of most heinous and violent shit about not only groups which hate , but other " in-group " members who disagree . TERFs who actively wish horrible circumstances on trans people as well as cis allies , who speak of pure and utter violence against even each other for disagreements , who truly believe superior , more intelligent , physically incapable of wrong and hurt others .
some amount of violence is necessary for progress under current conditions , but have to know where to attack - not allies , not people who consider to be brainwashed victims , not random strangers who tick off wrong boxes . actual structures of power . to place focus of activism on personal superiority to everyone else is how people get stuck in cults .
crosspost from tumblr . in answer to arguments that somehow still go around , which assert that people with this disability or that trait not actually more aggressive than peers ... and that anyone who is , is actually just fake . destroy stereotypes and stigma , yes , but do not throw real people under bus to do so !
unfortunate answer : sometimes , yes , this is necessary .
some people refuse as is to listen to spoken word boundaries , believe boundary is something to push past and ignore . this is even more true if boundaries not given through spoken word , but instead things like door hangers , gestures or local sign language , and yes , even AAC devices that read written words out loud .
top that off with fact that nonverbal people may also have traits like sensory sensitivity , differences in executive function and ability to switch tasks , differences in emotional regulation , and other traits which society misunderstand or otherwise do not recognise in wider world , and these boundaries can seem almost frivolous to others .
this means not only refuse to listen because non-spoken , but refuse to listen because believe unimportant . this often means that upon disrespect , there is no other way to defend these boundaries without aggression - whether through noise like growl and scream , or physical action like slam doors and shove .
unfortunately , authority figures very quick to characterise this as nonsensical behavioural issue , something that just need to beat away . but have to face truth here : if someone already decide to disrespect boundaries , no amount of polite AAC usage will get that person to stop - but kick and scream might .
yes , sometimes people with particular disabilities and traits will be more aggressive than those without - not because that is necessarily inherent , but because that is only way to protect self . can not discuss aggression as only media stereotype , assert that every actual person is sweet angel cake at all times , and then cast out anyone who do happen to be aggressive as some kind of fake . that attitude honestly speak to lack of awareness and insight that other people might have different problems .